Of course, I tried to save my marriage, but my wife made it clear that I was not man enough for her. 

After she left, I was lonely and sad. I thought maybe if I found another woman, everything was going to be okay.
I thought maybe I would find someone who would accept me the way I was.

So I started going out. I started talking to women. I eventually found one who was interested in me.

Her name was Felicia.
She was beautiful. She was younger than me.
I thought I had finally found someone who would make me forget about my wife.

The first time we entered the bedroom, I was very nervous.
I knew my problem. I knew I was small. I knew I could not last long.
But I prayed that maybe this time would be different.

After we finished, Felicia did not say anything at first.
She just got up and started dressing up. I asked her what was wrong. She did not answer me.

Then she finally spoke. And what she said will haunt me forever.

She said:

“John, I have never been with a man as small as you. I did not even feel anything.
And you finished in less than 2-minutes. You call yourself a man? Abeg, do not call me again. 

AND SHE LAUGHED!
She laughed as she walked out of my door.

I HAVE NEVER FELT SHAME LIKE THAT IN MY LIFE. 

That laughter. That laughter still rings in my ears till today.
I have never felt so humiliated in my entire life.
I am a man. I am a businessman. But in that moment, I felt like nothing. 

After that day, I stopped talking to women.

I decided to find a solution. 
My brother, I tried so many things but none of them worked. I just decided to accept my fate. 

I stopped everything. I gave up.